Should I stay or should I go now?

The point of this blog was to write.. tell someone what I'm reading, what my life goals are, and how I'm doing at achieving them, to write down feelings and thoughts. I'm not very good at that last part, but at the moment, I'm in the mood to write.. or at least tell someone other than the normal people (who will read this anyway) how I'm feeling.

I hate my job right now. Or more, I hate the idea of having to work in reallly cold temperatures (-30 or so), alone, and on a snowmobile. Working alone to me is just a bit sketchy, and I know that I wouldn't push myself to get work done faster. In the summer, maybe. In the winter, when my toes are numb, my hands are frozen and don't feel like they belong on me, and my eyelashes stick together, there is no way that I'd be pushing myself that hard. Not to mention that I'm not super comfortable on snowmobiles (or at least, I'm not that comfortable on quads as of now, and I'm betting that after this week and the course this weekend I still won't be that happy on snowmobiles). These three things are making me want to quit my job. Of course, there's things with management that definitely drive me insane, but one of the people that stresses me out the most is going on mat leave for a year. I don't know if I should just wait it out and see if there's any more work that doesn't involve being up here, or if I should just say, hey, that's it, I'm done. I want to be done for several reasons: management isn't the best. Not even close. The commute is lame enough to need to go to bed early and get up early, leaving only weekends for social times. I don't know if there's even work for me if I tell them I'm not going on the next trips up here. I just don't know. But..

I'm always the girl with the plan.. how life will work out, what my plan for the next day or week is. Calendars are my friends, and I enjoy using them, seeing how everything will fit together. So, two things: Scheduling for this job sucks. It changes frequently which is irritating. Second, if I quit, then I have no plan. Nothing. I have some ideas, but there probably won't be a more permanent job until the next field season, sometime in between March and May. Not ideal.

If I'm going to give notice, I need to do it soon. Either now, so I'm done mid-December, or Dec 1 so that I'm done for Jan 1. That kind of gives me two weeks to find a plan. Except that no one is hiring. It's December. People hiring right now are looking for analysts.. and I am definitely not one of those. I'd love to have that skill set, but as of yet, no one will give me one. I potentially have some volunteer opportunities, and let's face it, I love having a bit of time to be alone and lazy. That could work out.. but.. there's always a but..

More books

Quick update of what I've been reading lately:

• Ex-Boyfriend's Handbook - Matt Dunn. Not really that exciting. Story of how a guy learns to get over his ex by trying to get her back. 

• The Saxon Shore - Jack Whyte. Book four of the Dream of Eagles Cycle. Still so, so good.

• Everything Bad is Good for You - Steve Johnson. I read this for our book club, and it was actually a book that I had wanted to read. I actually remember the introduction from when I attempted to read it the first time. (That's one of the main reasons I don't re-read books!). Giant essay about pop culture, and how gaming is not actually ruining our lives, but may, in fact be good for us. Woohoo.

• The Fort at River's Bend (The Sorcerer, book I) - Jack Whyte. Book five of the Dream of Eagles Cycle. I'm still happily reading them, so they must be good, right?

That's all for now! I think it's time to hit up the library so I can knock back a few not-so-interesting books before I head back up north.